While attending the 28 day inpatient treatment program, I met another Asian. If some of you didn’t know, I’m part Korean. I was so excited. She had some similar features of my mother when my mother was younger, I thought that was an interesting thing. Let me just say, this lady was absolutely beautiful. I … Continue reading Rehab – The Other Asian
Sometime in Fucking April - LOL After about a week of being in treatment I got assigned a big sister. I thought maybe I should have gotten a big sister on the first day out of detox, but that’s not how it went. I don’t know, I don’t run the place. I wish I could … Continue reading Rehab – My “BIG SISTER”
06/22/2021 The chemistry of our bodies, play in my head like a romantic movie on a big screen. You embrace my personal bubble and I instantly feel safe. Goosebumps arise as your fingertips trace my spine, I don't want to move a muscle. Tomorrow you will be gone, but you left something behind. The scent … Continue reading The Scent of You
Some Time in April 2021 Everyday in treatment we would have certain classes. Some classes were better than others. These groups had a certain purpose or two. First and foremost to teach us different coping skills, addiction process’, and a lot of other cool things to do with our new journey we were on the … Continue reading Rehab – Groups
Saturday, The Day I was released from Detox The first person who said Hi to me was the most beautiful red head with the most prettiest eyes.. She also had a newborn baby with her, his name was Gauge. Her story was so heartbreaking but she has so much will power to live. She mentioned … Continue reading The First Hello in Treatment
March 31st - April 3rd If you're unfamiliar with the detox process, let me just tell you this now... It was the absolute worst part of treatment. So, I go in with only a suitcase of maybe 4 pairs of clothes. We couldn't bring any food in, and I didn't bring any Dr. Pepper. I … Continue reading Detox Days.
March 30th, 2021 - The night before treatment I was obviously a chaotic mess. I'm sure my story is comparable to many addicts stories 24 hours prior to rehab. What a shame. I had been trying to use as much as I could, because I knew it was going to be the last time. Its … Continue reading The Process of Events and Emotions of a 2 Hour Car Ride To Rehab
The day I decided to stay alive and make a change. Boy oh boy, had this been one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I had been crying out for help for years but never did I accept the help that was offered. I was and still at times can be so stubborn. … Continue reading March 31st, 2021
March 31st, 2021 - The Decision Day I could go on and on about what active addiction is, but that would be exhausting. I'll put it in a short and not so sweet way. Active addiction is pretty much like suicide. It can be a very slow process, for some it can be almost instant. … Continue reading Active Addiction
Stay tuned and I'll start telling you my steps of recovery. It all began March 31st, 2021.